January 21, 2005

QandA sounds like Wanda but its more about someone else

Q. I'm back
A. Thats not a question

Q. Fuck you
A. Fuck you too

Q. So ..
A. Get to it man, havent got whole day u know.

Q. So, everything..= job and money?
A. Yeah, thats wat i said

Q. What about a relationship? Isnt that part of something? of everything?
A. It should, shouldnt it. But then why didnt i say it? Maybe its not "everything" right NOW. in the present. Its not what i want RIGHT NOW, which would make sense, considering what i;'ve said before.

Q. Am i asking the important questions?
A. I dont think so

Q. hmmm
A. *scratches crotch*

Q. FOCUS!
A. FOCUS!

Q. .............
A. *plays some radiohead music*

Q. So what have u learnt from the last round?
A. That my career is more important to me than i am spending time on, and that i love my baby to the point that i dont want to dissapoint her. I'm afraid to dissapoint her. I am dissapointing her, and am constantly, and she will love me less. We will fight more.

Q. Why are you afraid to dissapoint her?
A. Her approval means a lot to me, and her dissaproval kills me.

Q. Dont bullshit. U want to see other girls dont you?
A. A part of me tells me that, but that part is my dick head. Its not me.

Q. So? other guys are driven by their dicks..what makes you so different?
A. I dont want to be like other guys! I am better and bigger than my desires to fuck other women. Its primal. I can fight that desire in my loins! (loins?!?!?)

Q. So what?
A. So why can i talk to her the way i used to . Have we run out of things to say? Is it just me? Do i just feel it?

Q. Why is that important...to have something to talk about?
A. She'll get bored of me

Q. She's already told you thats not important, right?
A. Yeap.

Q. SO?
A. Youre right, its not important.

Q. So, why do you want to break up?
A. I dont want to break up. I made a stupid mistake, i rushed into it. Fucking stupid shiet. She'll never take me back now. Even if she did, would it be the same? Would she still love me the same?

Q. What if she didnt, what if she didnt loved u less?
A. It would. I dont want her to love me less.

Q. Why? You have to live with the consequences of youre choices
A. I know asshole. But the consequences suck.

Q. Why are you watching reflections of your fingers as you type?
A. Its psychedelic. Plus Tool-Mercaba is playing. It feels psychedelic.

Q. What are you doing right now?
A. Smelling myself. Damn i stink. Havent had a bath the whole day.

Q. Have you fucked it up?
A. Highly likely.

Q. How are you going to save it?
A. By talking to her tomorrow. Will sms her now. Or maybe later. argh.

Q. Did you edit this?
A. only once, i swear.


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