4.05am

Woke up, reached for the watch, and it was 4.05am. It was hot, humid, and i was sweating...and i wake up to that everyday.

Its as good a time as any to wake up. Been sleeping to much lately. I like waking up when ppl are asleep. It feels like i'm alone, and no one will be around to give me shit.

Hope i get a place of my own someday. Its probably a long way off, with my responsibilities at home. But no matter, its just a want, not a need.

Spoke to GOD when i woke. Its incredibly insightful, just talking to him. He doesnt say much, because i already know all the answers to my questions.

One of the questions i asked was, did GOD make me this way? Did GOD create this lazyness, procrastination, wicked thoughts, etc? But i realised that GOD didnt do that, I created that. I made a choice based on events that have happened in my life.

So then i wondered, what did GOD really create in me? Who am i? What is this beauty and gifts that GOD creates in each and everyone of us? How do we recognize it?

I have realised one thing though, that one day i hope to teach football to kids. Right now, that sounds like the most ideal job i'd like to have. Maybe i should email that guy in Liverpool FC Academy, as i read recently they are having this 4 day training thing, for 100 pounds. I'd love to go, but 100 pounds= RM600. My blady plane ticket would probably cost more. Maybe i'd better check what i can do locally first before i go flying off somewhere. And perhaps i should learn to master the football before i try to teach kids.

Then again, what are the chances that i'd be teaching a bunch of mini-Maradona's?